It's amazingly easy to fall into care. It's amazingly easy to let it sink in completely that this is an old, dear friend as he moves mechanically to keep up cleaning up the excess blood.

And it's bad. This is bad. This is the sort of bad that can't be ignored or explained away.

His hands are shaking a little when he moves out of the way for the doctor with only the slightest plea that they be allowed to stay. To be helpful.